Ah life, one minute you're SHure , the next hmmm


THe Apex network of churches web site has a blog link and last I knew I was on it.My blog has a lot of cursing in it .SO its weird to be linked to a church site but well, There it is. IF this is you're first time visiting my blog and you got here via the Church link,I hope mister F word and his lesser friends don't sting the ears.Its weird , Christianity that is, there's is freedom yet im called to be a slave.The thing is I've got so many areas in my life that I feel are so much "worse than my cursing, selfishness, greed, apathy,....Sloth, they really make The F-bomb seem trivial.When i buy things i don't need,For my self or my family, for entertainment or just cause, and there are people in need,that's probly a sin.Maybe the F Dash dash dash word is a by product of all the sin in my life.Maybe I could reverse the process and cleaning up my mouth would have an effect on my heart and i would start to see changes in my "problem "areas?.Maybe not. Fuck it.

"Mark my words boy,mark them well ,Ive survived you're pedisesors, i will survive you."

Ah life one minute youre ostin, the next your trish.


I like the matrix, and the matrix reloaded.thier good.

this blog sucks


"we are not here because we are free, we are here because we are not free"

Ah life, one day youre doug citizen Thirty year old husband and father of three,the next youre Mandy.




You are Mandi. You're smart and funny. You don't go
to the same school as me anymore and for
that...I'm very sad. You're still cool though.
You send some pretty neat fowards.


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Fuckin wierd

"Wiggle youre toe"

Ah life one day your reading X-men, the next its The sandman .


Im a cariacature artist.this is dificult because its "so amazzing what i can do "and"im so talented"and everyones"always wanted to do that"but they dont.The other night I worked a "gig" for always entertianing.they pay me 75 dollars an hour for three hours to draw state farm employees at thier huge corprate party out at the silverbowl.Thier were eight artists I know and respect workiing.Even with Eight artists working fast for two hours wiht a line at least fifty feet long we still had to turn people away.I drew 54 people. the next night at my caricature booth I drew one drawing of 4 people.... they were the last ones to get turned away at the stat farm party.So now you understand right? Right? If i give my art away people are nuts for it.I love to do it so much i would be glad to sit and give them away every day,but ...bills...family to feed....hookers and blow, all things i need money for.I would like to get a cassino to pay me to give away drawing, like the many payed entetianers on the stirp who prefom for "free" I just not so good a marketing myself.Pluss i have a paralising lassyness. Its verry powerful actualy.


"We are the music makers, and we are the dreamers of dreams"